For some reason, we've developed a culture of consistently comparing girls against girls based on appearance. Just look at Fashion Police and fashion magazines with their segments on "Who wore it better?" Does Fashion Police still exist? I don't know, because I stopped watching when it simply became a façade for bullying. That's a whole different blog though.
Looking back, I realized that I was a very lost and confused teenager. At times I might have thought I knew who I was, but there's who you are, who you think you are, who you strive to be, and then who you strive not to be, hope not to be, do everything possible not to be but sometimes still end up being.
Love, Justine was started to inspire folks to love themselves, and thus be able to love one another. Well, I have a confession to make. I'm not always good at practicing what I preach. If you ever heard the way I've criticized myself and how I have judged myself, you might think I'm an awful, miserable person. It's truly terrible and so unhealthy.
It seems as though people, especially women, are all over positive body image these days, which is great, because if we love ourselves then maybe we can be better at loving each other, too. However, every time I read something about women loving and owning their flaws, I get a little ping in my stomach and my face becomes distorted, not because I don’t want people to love their “flaws,” I just have an issue with calling someone’s curves “flaws.” By calling out these “flaws” I feel we’re just confirming how the part of society driven by pop culture views standards of beauty, particularly when it comes to women.
Only my mother could make going to the spa stressful; but once I got her there, a sudden calm fell over her and she was almost childlike. It was amazing—as soon as we set foot in the place I noticed the difference. By the time we were done, I almost couldn’t get her to leave, and she was inquiring about membership opportunities.
On the way there, she was complaining about how she does not have time for this, she’s got too many things to do, and in my head I just kept thinking, this is exactly why you need to go to the spa. She of all people needed these few hours of relaxation. Honestly, pulling teeth would have been easier than getting her to go.
For 21 days, I reset my body to an optimum state of “thrival”—getting my pH level to a better alkaline state, ridding my body of wastes and toxins, giving my metabolism the kick it needed, and not that I’ve ever lacked energy, but overall ensuring that my energy level stays up where I need it to be. I wanted to do this, because as if law school wasn’t stressful enough, the two months afterwards are the most stressful. And as some of you already know, my body had shut down. It wasn’t absorbing minerals. So, I really wanted to get my body back to “normal,” and to also ensure that it’s at its utmost superior state, physically and mentally, during these couple of months. Well as normal as it can be while it’s still under the stress and lack of sleep that is at the moment unavoidable. Plus, I have an incredible European vacation planned later on this summer, for which I need to look fabulous ;).