Looking back, I realized that I was a very lost and confused teenager. At times I might have thought I knew who I was, but there's who you are, who you think you are, who you strive to be, and then who you strive not to be, hope not to be, do everything possible not to be but sometimes still end up being.
You were never one of the "cool kids," but you had friends who were. You were never a "nerd" but people assumed you were smart, because you're Asian, even though you worked your ass off to be slightly above average--B+ like your blood type. You were never an outcast, but you never felt like you quite fit in, so you became a chameleon, which, come to think of it, is probably why you oft felt so lost and confused. You learned to be loud and funny (and/or obnoxious depending how you view it), because that was how you were going to be seen and heard. You were nice to the wrong people and not nice enough to those you should have valued more, but mostly you tried to love everyone. The cage door was always left open so eventually you explored a bit of the wild side.
Your insecurities sometimes got the better of you and made you an angsty teen, and you were really hard on yourself, really hard sometimes. Your heart was tender and you cared deeply for everything you did and the people in your life.
If I could go back in time I'd tell you to first be kind to yourself, love yourself. You have to love yourself, otherwise you'll never allow yourself to be loved. I'd tell you not to worry about anyone else, just be kind to everyone. If I could go back in time I'd tell you that something will happen to you that will change your life forever--for the better and for the worse, but in the end it's all for the better because you'll realize that only YOU get to choose how your life is lived. If I could go back in time I'd have you realize you are deserving of love. I'd tell you not to be afraid of being loved and valued for who you are at your core. Your faults and falls only make your core stronger and more brilliant. If I could go back in time I'd tell you that you often feel lost and confused because you are indefinable, despite every label people try to attach to you. Let truth guide you and compassion move you.
You were never meant to be perfect. You were only meant to love.
BIG LOVE & HUGS
The other day, Emma Watson announced she'd be taking a year off from acting to focus on her personal growth and do more in her work to support and fight for gender equality around the world. You go girl. Emma is the kind of celebrity role model our girls need today. This break she's taking sends an incredible message to them.
As girls, many of us are raised to always please others and it's part of our nature to always care for others and think of others, often times before ourselves. The fact that she's taking time for her own personal growth, which includes reading a book a week and doing more yoga, sets an example of how important it is to take care of ourselves. What we can do for others starts with what we can do for ourselves. More importantly, she's taking care of her body and mind.
The work she does with the UN and He for She is also incredibly powerful, because I assume she has many fans like myself--those who have loved her since she entered our lives as Hermoine Granger, and continue to admire her intelligence, grace, and beauty. We need more women like Emma, who are making feminists around the world look good. I mean, let's face it. Often times, people hear the word "feminist" or "feminism" and they almost fear it, because it carries some negative connotation. There's always got to be someone who takes it too far and kills it for the rest of us right? Well, women like Emma are shining the proper light back on to feminism as a fight for equality, which should have never had to be a fight in the first place, but it takes time to undo hundreds and thousands of years of social norms.
Miss. Emma Watson, you are a beautiful soul, and I wish you an incredible year of personal growth, because that growth can only mean a ripple effect of goodness to be spread around the world.
BIG LOVE & HUGS