Last night at RCIA (Rite of Christian Initiation for Adults), we did a trust walk with our sponsors, where they blindfolded us and led us around for a few minutes. It was symbolic of trusting in God even when you’re not sure where you’re going, and even in times when you may be blind.
When Sister told us what we were about to do, I was so excited. I trust my sponsor, Brittany, with my life. She’s like a sister to me, so I knew this was going to be so much fun—so much so that I decided we should video tape our little adventure.
To my surprise, I was not as relaxed during this exercise as I thought I would be. I was still excited, but it was an excitement of blind curiosity. While I trusted Brittany, my shoulders tensed up a bit and I was walking slowly and cautiously, because I could not see a thing, and at times I reached my hands out to try to feel what was ahead or make sure I wasn’t walking into any walls. Additionally, when I knew we were at a door, I wanted to help open the door, because she was supporting me, making sure I made it through the door, and it was truly like my relationship with God. I trust him 100%, and I know that he will guide me wherever I’m meant to go, but it’s up to me to open the doors and be curious, even when I’m thinking to myself, “God, what are we doing, why are we going this way?”
As Brittany led me around the church grounds, I had my eyes open under the blindfolds, so I could tell when we’d walk into an area that was darker or brighter. It was funny, because I think my excitement would peak when I could see and feel the light, and when it was dark I was like a child innocently creeping around dark corners, giddy at thought of what might turn up around each corner. Again, this, was a good insight into how I tend to live my life. When I feel like I’m standing in the light I feel like I’m soaring. When times are darker, I’m more cautious and weary, but never less curious.
It really was so fun and insightful. I didn’t expect to have such a self-reflective experience. Life is such a beautiful journey, and with God and the ones I love, I have no fears facing its challenges. I may have questions, and sometimes proceed with caution, or sometimes not, but I have no fears.
BIG LOVE & HUGS